portfolio of digital media works
digital illustration
cut the golden signal (2024 ver.)
digital art
“A redo of an older drawing from 2022.”
“The original 2022 illustration was derived from the embarrassing realization of misunderstanding social cues as a person with Social Anxiety Disorder. The emphasized red-yellow-green palette and title ‘Cut the Golden Signal’ reference misreading a traffic light.
At this time I thought someone was interested in me (which was exciting since I didn’t have any close relationships at the time), but that turned out to not be the case. I tried to be proactive with starting that relationship, so it felt like I misread the green “go” light. That light wasn’t green, instead it shifted to yellow. It’s not a signal that’s completely indifferent, but it’s also not my cue to completely continue forward.
I made the 2024 version after a year on my anti-depressant used to treat my social anxiety. This version lowers the contrast in between colors as an analogy to color blindness. The fact I was blind to social cues and social conventions, was probably something that stood out a lot. But the effect of lowering the contrast creates a sense of weakened impact from the impaling spikes. Sure, I was still blind to many things— but on treatment I loosened up. The mistakes I harshly criticized myself for became something I expected and accepted. This version also includes more peculiarities with the subject’s body and right eye. There’s something incredibly dehumanizing about being forced to withdraw from the world, and I wanted to depict that. Regardless, the subject doesn’t seem too bothered by it. In the end, she’s not even crying anymore.
It’s embarrassing, and it hurts to wrongly interpret another person’s feelings for you. But if it’s a simple honest mistake, then I’ll leave it at that and not worry about it.”
RHOPALOCERA HELIX (2023 ver.)
digital art
“A redo of an older drawing from 2022.”
“An experiment in an unfamiliar centerpiece, a vulnerable person. Because of this illustration, I came to realize I enjoyed drawing this type of subject.
With the same origin as Cut the Golden Signal, Rhopalocera also carries the feeling of being mistaken, but after having laid one’s self bare to another.
A butterfly is the same as an insect, but appears charming because of its distracting wings. The helix is a downward spiral. I drew it with the feeling that there laid an endless pattern of mistakes ahead of me.
After Zoloft, I couldn’t share the same pessimistic sentiment, but I felt like I wanted to crystalize the feelings of my former self. I’m scared that my former self’s thoughts and feelings will become lost before becoming recognized. The only left who can acknowledge them today is me. So my redraws come from a place of wanting to honor that.”
study (2023 ver.)
digital art
“A redo of an older drawing from 2022.”
“At this time, I admired the realistic brushes and textured art I was seeing from digital artists using Procreate. As far as features go, ibisPaint is a bit more primitive in comparison. I sought to recreate this in my primary software by painting with bright colors to better highlight the texture. I also experimented with painting more emphasis on individual strokes as opposed to cleaner blending.”
reference, concept art, and assets
audio
video games
see all my game work on my itch page!
- games ive solo developed!
- games ive worked in teams with for game jams! (roles: 2D character/item sprite illustration, scene concepting… working on more!)
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